Dear firstborns ,

 Dear firstborns ,

Before everything else how are you doing ? Be genuine how are you really doing  ? Don't worry this is a safe space if you need to cry or share something you can .  Its okay to take a little break for yourself , I understand Its easy to say than doing it because there is a part in you that feels obligated to take care of everyone else needs  before yours . You were born to be the pillar of the family , you are expected to guide others yet to be honest no one guided you . You have walked on flames so that your siblings wont have to . You have had your bad days but you cant cry since you have been trained to be strong for everyone else . You have cried countless times in private and the times you have cried openly  you have been perceived rude and wrong .

You became a parent to your siblings while raising yourself also . I know the unspoken pain where you parents comeback from work and only asked how your siblings are doing and they didn't ask you how you are doing . The times you did all the chores you could but still they found fault in something . You had to do your chores , take care of siblings and also live your childhood but somewhere along the line you lost the sense of being a kid and you literally turned into a parent .

When your siblings made a mistake you automatically took the blame because you were in charge and apparently you are supposed to warn them yet you are a kid. The pain of seeing your siblings detest you since you yelled at them for something they did and they don't understand that you are just exhausted and suffocating in pain  .( on behalf of all firstborns I say sorry to all their siblings for the countless yelling ) The pain of watching your parents give your siblings the love and attention you wanted and needed  but in some way there is happiness since they will be better than you . 

You have lived your life with the fear of making mistakes because you have to be a great example to your siblings and your parents still do not appreciate it .IM SORRY 😔

Its saddening that the society ignore the pressure that comes with the label Firstborn .The expectations put on you they paint you into this perfect creature that is not allowed to make mistakes , the one who has every solution , the care giver and the top of all one who is ever okay and is not allowed to be weak in  any circumstance .  

I am sorry for the trauma , I am sorry for the lost childhood ,I am sorry for being the experimental kid , I am sorry for everything you went through . I am sorry if you feel betrayed by your parents . 

I want to tell you that you are the greatest ,strongest and caring person to ever exist. You are enough and you don't need any proof to prove you are enough . Its okay to cry ,its okay to breakdown ,its okay to failure since its the process of success. . 

I pray healing on all our hearts because you deserve it .I pray happiness and  success because you deserve it all . 

PS: I know we we function under the fake it till you make it but if it gets to hard please rest and take care of yourself .💓😊

You are brave in ways words cant explain . Keep doing you and just know you are did and you are still a great job .

THIS GOES TO ALL FIRSTBORNS  YOU ARE LOVED AND APPRECIATED .